I feel like I've been learning a lot about myself lately - a lot about how to handle difficult relationships, how I want to grow, and the things I need to have (and sometimes not have) in my life in order to remain psychologically and emotionally healthy. I've been spending a lot of time with myself, Otis, and Abi; doing the things that bring me joy. It feels good. I have a sense of peace in my life that I haven't had in a long time, if ever. For the first time I feel like I'm living my life for me and exploring the things that are important to me. In the past I think I've made decisions in my life based on what I thought other people would think was good or important or even 'Godly'. And because of that I've lived in an underlying state of panic, always subconsciously wondering how I'm disappointing the expectations I projected that people had of me. Somehow I've stopped doing that. I'm really not sure how, but I hope I can keep it up.

I've recently decided to start volunteering with the Humane Society, and for the first time in a long time I'm really excited about volunteering. I love animals. I've realized I have such a huge heart for them that it's silly for me to keep that passion bottled up (ok, I'm still working on the cat thing). Anyhow, really short story long, I'm really happy with where my life is and the path it seems to be on. I think because, for once, I'm on my own path, and not someone else's.